IM A PRETTY TRAGEDY || 12.18.96 || Junior High School in the Bay Area || Change what you can't accept || Accept what you can't change || Single || Don't fall inlove, there's just too much to lose || Kik: SerranoGabbie || XoXo, Gabrielle
If you’ve ever doubted yourself, walk deep into any forest. Notice how the trees still stand even though they are given no recognition. Walk along any stream. The water still flows, though no one stops to praise it. Watch the stars late at night; they shine without acknowledgment. Humans are just the same. We are made out of the same elements as these beautiful wonders. Always remember your beauty and self worth.
When the morning comes, I’ll start being me. Its a little hard to do that because for years I’ve been nothing but what people thought of me, what they make me up to be. It got me through most things, specially since I had someone who was always there you know? But now that she’s gone, Ive got to face things alone. I have many people in life who i can call my best friend. But to call someone my family.. Not really.. And shes that one person, she knew my every flaw and my every mistake.. My family struggles, life struggles, boy struggles, friends, schools, future, everything. Not once did she ever judge me or tell me it was a wrong decision. With every decision I made she would say that it is the right decision. Shes the one who taught me that its okay to make mistakes, and its okay to be me. I dont want that group, so why do i bother? I dont care at all.. I dont wanna be around a lot of people so why do i go there? Its time that I just come out as me. And tomorrow. Ill do that. And no, i dont need to explain myself. I have to start getting my act together. Im not a kid anymore. And if ever i hurt anyone in the future.. Im sorry..
And at this very moment, I realized that I was going to be alone in that cruel place. During the past years, she has been here, the person who never talked behind my back, who wanted to complain but didn’t, who was never tired of the things I complained about, who knew me so well it would scare you, the person who you can look at and know right away she cared for you, she was the one who never left. To lose someone like that was worst than having to deal with my ex ending it with me. It was worst than failing a class, worst than finding out you had to go to adult school or else you won’t graduate. Because how often do we find people like that right? Yeah.. Once in a lifetime.. Tomorrow, I’ll wake up knowing that my best friend won’t be at the EBuilding waiting, she won’t be at the library, she won’t be by the lockers.. She just wont be here.. And for the first time, I will have to keep all my emotions to myself.. I won’t have anyone to go with and rant without being judged. I won’t have someone to just sit with and be quiet with, I won’t have someone to hug and cry my eyes out, I won’t have anyone I can just hug and yell at without being questioned. And tomorrow, I’ll have to keep it together cause thats what she would’ve wanted. But today, it’s like realizing that the other half of me, is gone. And who knows when I’ll ever see her again. But, I guess I’ll wipe these tears off of my cheeks, drown myself in music, and wake up tomorrow with a smile, so no one sees this pain of mine
it doesn’t have to be elaborate
i don’t care for fancy dates
but if he says,
"hey let’s grab some coffee, my treat."
"i need to buy a sweater, help me choose?"
"i haven’t seen you in awhile, let’s go watch a movie."
it sounds totes better than
"idk what do you want to do choose"